Fuck my Life.

I wish I could say this to you... I want to every time I talk to you. I feel I can't, but don't really understand the underlying tangles, even if I have some hints and of course know the result. But do I truly know the result? I wish you'd say it first. It makes me crazy just thinking of the three words I want to say to you.. and even crazier that I can't say them!